I am not fine. I am feeling worst now. I am unsatisfied with what I have and I want to have better life. I am feeling the suffering as days passed. I know what i have not done. I know that these are all part of the test and karma that is already planned by Almighty for me. Someone that I trying to let go but I can't for now. Someone that I hate to be part of but there's no way getting out. Somewhere far that I wish to go to but there's always obstacles and lack of supports. I am really hunger for opportunity. I hope it can come to me faster as I am getting very tired and lost at same time. Is the depression coming to me again now? I can't imagine why certain people doing certain thing that are completely not acceptable. Why do I need to get out from one hazardous place and then jumping into another trap. All I need is simple life and security. I know that this must be part of the test. How did I do? Did I pass it , excel it? I hope brighter future for me ... i hope there's before my last breathe.
